Week 20 – Post 1

My favorite time of the year is fall. I love the colors, the smells when things begin to move back into the earth, the first rain, and how it seems as if the earth gets busy settling in for the coming winter. The feel of the nip in the air when temperatures drop and how my breath is now visual on cold mornings when I’m in the barn.

The wonderful feel of getting out the sweaters and coats and scarfs and gloves – putting my summer clothes away and pulling out boots of all varieties. This time of year feels good, right and like the farmers who have brought in their harvests, I feel it’s time for me to take stock of the harvest I have produced.

This week’s exercise on “The dash” between our birth and death was interesting – especially when we picked our fav time of year prior. For me – because I believe in a long, joyful, and healthy life, I have 48 more falls to breath in, revel in the sights and smells, and wear wonderful layers and gorgeous boots.

Two things occur to me in this exercise. First – that I’ve given myself many years to relish and enjoy so maybe there is less urgency than could help me. Second, if it’s shorter, or my health may be waning at the end of these dates what am I waiting for?

I loved the exercise and also the work about how fear, unworthiness, anger, and hurt feelings can be what is stopping me.

I go back and forth a lot – maybe most people do, and it also stops me up. On the one hand, being thrilled that I’m living the life I’ve created, and on the other hand, how to create an even better reality?

Mostly I am blessed, grateful, thrilled with what I’ve created, how I live, who I know deeply and trust and the work I’m blessed to do in the world. Then, I get the inkling that I can do more, do better, be a bigger influence, create even more for others and this sometimes becomes my wall as I allow the fear to flow through me.

Now, I can go to my plan, read my pages and do my sit and we shall see what happens next. Until next time!